God you never let go of me....

People may come and go in our life...
But God never let go of us...

I was listening to Matt Redman's song You Never Let Go from the album Passion.
The chorus says..

Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me


Have we ever thought of how great God's love towards us.. Even we as human, we learn to love our own child.. forgive and forget what they have done wrong.. Wanted and provide all the best for them... How much more is God's love towards us? He promise that He will not let go of us.. That brings relieve to my soul..

JESUS IS THE ANSWER - Ade Manuhutu

Yes.. Jesus is the answer for the world today, above him there's no other..

banyak persoalan membebani hidupmu
kau telusuri jalanmu tanpa kedamaian
bayangan masa lalu sangat menggangu diri mu
datanglah pada Yesus
dia lah jawaban

bila kau berjalan didalam kegelapan
bukit terjal batu tajam
menghadapi di depan
pandanglah pada Yesus
penolong yg setia
apa yg Dia janjikan
tak'kan dilupakan

I still remember Ade Manahutu and the groups came to Miri when i was still in kindergarten. We're really blessed with their sharing in God's words and praises and worship. That was the first and the last as they were band to enter sarawak..if i'm not mistaken. I'm so blessed when i watch this on youtube...

People are like

Many people are like garbage trucks.
They run around ....
full of garbage,
full of frustration,
full of anger,
and full of disappointment.

As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it.
And if you let them, they will dump it on you.
When someone wants to dump on you, don't take it personally.
You just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on.

A lesson learned....

When Life on hold....

Sometimes waiting builds our character; other times it's God's way of granting us a much-needed rest.
God knows when we're exhausted, and he wants us to have time to catch our breath.
Psalm 23:2, 3 reminds us,

"He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul.

If you're going through a waiting period, here are three ways to profit from it:

1. Wait quietly

God encourages his waiting ones to be still and spend time being quiet.
Psalm 16:5:

"Lord, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure."

Knowing God had secured my future, I could wait quietly for him to reveal his plan.

Writing helpful Scriptures on index cards and carry them with you, When thoughts become disquieted, read the verses and ask God to help you see his perspective on waiting.
In the Christian classic Abundant Living, author E. Stanley Jones says it's in spending quiet time with God that a Christian gains poise and power. Jones says, "One translator interprets the command, 'Be still, and know that I am God' this way: 'Be silent to God, and he will mold you.' Be silent to God, and he will make you become the instrument of his purposes. [In silence] an all-wise Mind will brood over your mind, awakening it, stimulating it, and making it creative."

God has a message in your wait, and in silence you can hear it clearly.

2. Wait hopefully

But the Bible reminds us to wait hopefully. "No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame … you are God my Savior," says Psalm 25:3,5. Biblical hope isn't a wishy-washy, "I hope this will turn out for good, but maybe it won't" attitude. Biblical hope is the confident assurance that God's in charge—no matter what.

We can have the same hope the Old Testament patriarch Abraham had awaiting the fulfillment of God's promise he would become the father of many nations. The Bible says, "Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed … he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead … yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised" (Romans 4:18-20).

3. Wait obediently

As we wait on God, we must stay obedient. When the wait is too much to bear, surrender it to God and remind ourself that we have given it to him. He'll come through.

Psalm 119 voices a servant's cry. The Psalm brims with the promise that those who obey God's statutes will be satisfied. They will not wait in vain. While you wait, live according to God's Word, seek him, and meditate on his message.

Why do I let criticism affect my self-worth?

If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you. For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. (Psalm 139:11-16)

I should have enough confidence in myself by now to prevent criticism from bothering me. But I don’t. No matter what people criticize, their harsh words hit me in the gut.

Acknowledging and realize that my worth doesn't come from all those- marriage or career or housework or having great friends or gaining anyone's approval.... It comes from my Creator.

At work, criticism from boss or colleauge..pouring question that make me feel so stupid as well as unworth being there as a employee.. They are blessed with wisdom and knowledge that is too far to briliant to cope with.... what would it be like without the blessing, without the mercy.. without the grace of God. I look up to my Creator... giving thanks as everything is from Him alone...

Friendship, different people has their own opinion.. i might not like to be friend with a person with that and this kind of attitude.. being self centered.. being so kind yet so cruel.. being so naieve yet so mean... too many personalities to face with... criticism would be endingless...i am so glad that my Creator is my best friend ever..who understand..who never measure how and who i am...i should not trying to gain approval from anyone for acceptance.. as no one is perfect and realiable.

Marriage, the before and after in marriage has a difference. Before when dating, each partner tend to do things that would make the other partner felt appreciated includes giving gift, sweet talk and spending so much time just to be with each other. After marriage, a different approach is being used.. no more gift, no more sweet talks.. much would be on responsiblities.. debt to pay, monthly expenses to share with, house cleaning and lots more. Criticism on how good each partner handle his responsiblity would be an issue. How good do you serve your husband.. how good are you at house cleaning, keeping things in place and etc. My worth doesnt being measured by that... walking with my Creator in each steps i takes count the most

Thank you God for you have known me even before i was born... whom i
should look upon in every critism about me that hurts.

Nicole C. Mullen - Call On Jesus

when i call on Jesus....all things are possible...
I am truly blessed with this song.. it lift up my spirit.. and remind me to look up to Jesus in everything...as i m not alone.. He will rescue me.. He is my strength... He is my hope...

Reality Checks

Pinpoint the ways you may be sabotaging yourself by answering the following questions:

• What judgments do I make about myself that are, in fact, untrue? What's something wonderful about me that I've undervalued?
• How do I typically respond when someone brags about me? Is it hard for me to receive a compliment—and why?
• Do I fail to stick up for myself when someone challenges what I know to be true?

Yes.. it happen to me all the time... when someone who are brilliant, who brags a lot near me, i would chicken out and tell myself that i am so stupid and i am not and will not be abreast with them.. When its project time, i would be the one who struggle so much to get the job done, while some goes surfing the net, chatting online as their part has completed. I would be the one who burn nite oil, sacrificing my sleep to make sure my part is done on time... these goes on and on till i surrender and tell myself its all caused by my inability and how stupid i am in my work.. seems to be i cant do any good work...as i am not that good in the task... i spend so much time on it while other people can spend lesser time to get it done... more bugs to fix later even after testing few rounds...where do i go wrong? the conclusion is i am not that good in this field. It was a lie....

I have low self esteem, i dont feel like working, i am not excited about anything about work. Despite God's assurance that he is absolutely crazy about us, most of us cant believe he means us...

Paycheck, title, designer labels, or some other artificial yardstick gives us temporary entry into the world of The Accepted. But in our hearts, we know it isn't real. How do we find our way to the truth?

In the J.B. Phillips translation of the Bible, Romans 12:3 reads,

Try to have a sane estimate of your capabilities by the light of the faith that God has given to you all.

Before we can "hear" it, though, we have to identify the "dirty data" we've believed. We need to expose ways in which we've inadvertently contributed to the problem:

Comparison traps.
People around me at work are brilliant, able to achieve impossible task on time and there is no fear of not knowing how to work around the request.
For myself, apart from ASP programming, i'm hopeless.. i get nervous and freak out when impossible task is waiting... I was certain that i wasnt smart enough as the rest of the troupe...It was a lie.

The art of the put-down
People respect us as much as we respect ourselves.. thats why the absence of self-confidence can make people not to believe in us. In my culture.. when we receive a complement, we would discount it.. which meant was..there must be some mistake.. i'm not worth your regards.. i dont like myself and cant really believe you do either. The problem is when we persist in putting ourselves down, people will begin to believe we are right.

Reclaim the Truth
I should regain the confidence God wants me to. To start with :

Names the lies - and give them to God.
List the falsehoods others have said about you and what you believed about yourself. Be specific, then agree with God that is is not how he sees you.. tell him

God, i know you made me, and you don't make junk. These lies have to go on. I wan to see myself the way you see me. Please begin the process of changing my mind.

I confess the lie that i was stupid on my work .. yet, even after acknowledging that i am actually pretty intelligent person, i still had to grieve the fact that no amount of classes or training would ever completely solve my programming skills.

God's Word is full of information about your identity and position as a believer in Jesus Christ. Let the wonder of God's perspective on you soak in. Do you fully realize what it means to be …

* Fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14)
* Precious to God (Isaiah 43:4)
* Cared about since your conception (Isaiah 46:3)
* God's child (John 1:12)
* Jesus' friend (John 15:15)
* Chosen by Jesus (John 15:16)
* Loved dearly by God (John 16:27)
* Free from condemnation (Romans 8:1)
* A temple—a dwelling place—of God's Spirit (1 Corinthians 3:16)
* Redeemed and forgiven of all your sins (Colossians 1:14)

God didn't get that specific in describing Eve! All he tells us about her in Gen. 1:27, 31 is that she was made in his image and it was very good! He feels the same way about me. so i should celebrate!

this is something i should learn to believe in and keep remainding myself ...